It all started with a text. One simple text.
“Come meet me”, he said.
I thought about it for a couple of minutes and I gave him my reply.
“…Okay, what time?” I said.
There was slight uncertainty in my mind. Everything was so out of the blue. I didn’t have time to process what was about to happen. I think that was a good thing in a way, it made me feel free again, it made me feel spontaneous… just like the old times. I lay in bed for a moment wondering what I had just agreed to and then he replied.
“I’ll meet you at Victoria at 12:30”.
And that was that. It was official. We were actually doing this.
I got out of bed and made my way downstairs to find my mum in the kitchen. I could hear Noah playing in the front room. I stood in the doorway to the kitchen for a minute, watching my mum. It took me a while to pluck the courage to ask her and then I just went ahead and did it.
“Do you mind if I go out for lunch today? It’s for my birthday”. The perfect excuse and the perfect timing! It was my birthday in 3 days so she was bound to say yes. I didn’t feel comfortable telling my mum where I was going or who I was meeting just yet.
“Yeah I suppose so” she replied.
My body filled up with excitement. I turned back around and ran upstairs to get ready. I had 2 hours before I needed to leave my house to catch my train, so I quickly jumped into the shower and sorted myself out.
I ordered a cab to the station and tapped my contactless card before heading down the steps to the platform and waiting for the train to arrive. I was beginning to feel very nervous. I hadn’t seen him in 2 years and a lot had changed in that time. I felt different in myself, physically and mentally. I also had a son now, Noah. Noah’s dad and I were no longer together and hadn’t been for a long time. It was a very sour relationship and having Chris text me out of the blue to meet him was a breath of fresh air. I couldn’t believe that he still wanted to see me after all this time. It was as if it was meant to be. Fate had brought us back together.
“Train to Victoria is now approaching platform 1.”
This was me. I stood at the train doors waiting for the ‘Ding’ to let me know that the doors were ready to be opened. I pushed the button and scoured the carriage for a seat. The train was empty so there were plenty to choose from. The train began to leave the station and I could feel it inside me that the nerves were kicking in. Everything began to feel tight, but I just thought to myself ‘no, you can do this’.
“We will shortly be arriving at London Victoria.” The last stop. The closer I got the more nervous I become. I hadn’t made this journey for 2 years and that was when I had last seen him. All I could think about was how he would feel when he finally saw me again. Face to face. The train pulled into the station and the doors opened. I began my walk from my carriage to the exit barriers. I felt like I was walking a catwalk and all eyes were on me. The hustle and bustle of London hadn’t changed one bit. I couldn’t see Chris yet so I was in luck, I was the first to arrive.
I walked to the McDonald’s that we had planned to meet at. I pulled out my phone from my pocket and began to text him. “I’m here, how far are you?” I said. He replied with “won’t be long 2 mins”. I continued to look at my phone as if I was doing something when really I was just so nervous I didn’t know what to do with myself. As I looked up to glance around the station I see him walking towards me with a massive smile on his face. He stopped in front of me and face me a massive cuddle and said “alright Lillie, it’s good to see you again how have you been?” It was like we’d never stopped seeing each other, like nothing bad changed. I felt overjoyed, I’ve never felt so happy in my whole life.
Hearing his voice made my heart melt. He made me feel alive again. I just couldn’t believe after all those years we’d actually see each other again. I was overwhelmed with excitement. We began walking to the exit of the station. This was it. Our new adventures were about to begin fall over again!